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LtCmdr Ash MacKenna - In Your Eyes

2018-09-13 16:45:40

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((Corridors of the Recreation Deck, DS26)) MacKenna: Is everything alright? ::The sound of her concern echoed in the corridors where the two stood. The= question had been asked, to go somewhere and just be, to =E2=80=98get a dr= ink' and take in the company of the other. The answer had been gran= ted, opening the doors wide to an entirely new path, a new step in life. An= d yet the two of them had stopped and became quickly wrapped up in each oth= er.:: ::With speed and haste that made her pause, the connection to this other be= ing grew exponentially with something as simple as a good long look into hi= s eyes. In a way it reminded her just why she tended to avoid the eyes of o= thers, but on a different level. She wasn't really afraid of what s= he would find in his eyes =E2=80=93 she knew there would be no ridicule, no= disapproval, disgust, or hostility =E2=80=93 but she was quite concerned.:= : ::And in a way, that was entirely more terrifying of a prospect.:: Shayne: Yes. ::The answer was quick, strong, to the point, and one incredibly small word= for such a big lie. That was the story his eyes told her, and in that mome= nt, her own discomfort melted away. Still, she fumbled, not knowing the rig= ht way to be concerned. Though rare, not knowing just what to do prevented = her from action just as much as her worst days of anxiety. But in this mome= nt, that simply wasn't good enough.:: ::She had to help somehow, and that would require action.:: Shayne: It is improving. Slowly. I turned down the first = officer position a few days ago. I think I think that may have bee= n a mistake. ::Without another thought, Ash reached out for his hand. This was something= she knew quite well, the feelings of that exact choice. In the balance a c= areer, the lives of everyone on the ship, and an entire future. Balancing t= he good with the bad, and doing it when you felt so utterly lost, sub-par. = Unworthy perhaps. Ash had taken the center chair for only a couple weeks be= fore proverbially running away and she knew.:: ::Running away, regardless of the reasoning or viability of it all, was not= as easy as it was made out to be.:: MacKenna: I ::How did she tell him? There was so much she wanted to say, to tell him th= at it would be okay even though she couldn't imagine how she could = guarantee that. She wanted him to know that it was not a mistake if it was = best for him at the moment. He had to know that one choice didn't d= efine his value here or anywhere else.:: ::A kind of anxious desperation to help finally kicked her.:: MacKenna: Let's go somewhere. ::Her tone might have been quiet, but somehow she'd managed to main= tain her eye contact. In that, she tried with everything she had to convey = a look of understanding. Was it coming through how it was intended? She cou= ld only hope. She desperately wanted him to know she understood, he wasn=E2= =80=99t alone.:: ::And in that moment she realized something profound. Perhaps she wasn=E2= =80=99t either.:: Shayne: ? ::With intensity she'd rarely experienced, this connection cracked = with the raw power of the universe. Ash was never one to believe in fate, o= r in powers that couldn't be explained by physics, but this was som= ething she couldn't fit into the numbers of any mathematic equation= of formula. Without question, she followed, not knowing where, or how long= this journey would last, but knowing that she wanted to take it.:: ::Her insides churned, but not from fear. It would seem that her concerns a= bout her complete loneliness would be unfounded, dashed to bits by this one= person.:: ::Making all the difference in the universe.:: MacKenna: I understand how you feel. I've been there once. But it g= ets better. ::If it took everything of her, she'd find a way to make it better.= She had to.:: Shayne: ? ::The corridors moved slowly past as they walked, once again with their eye= s finding other things to see.:: TAG/TBC Lieutenant Commander Ash MacKenna Chief Science Officer USS Columbia R238605KN0 -- You received this message because you are subscribed to the Google Groups "= UFOP: StarBase 118 =E2=80=93=C2=A0Andaris Task Force" group. To unsubscribe from this group and stop receiving emails from it, send an e= mail to sb118-andaris+unsubscribe@googlegroups.com. To post to this group, send email to sb118-andaris@googlegroups.com. Visit this group at https://groups.google.com/group/sb118-andaris. To view this discussion on the web visit https://groups.google.com/d/msgid/= sb118-andaris/SN6PR07MB419148A299238B8BE3479032AF1A0%40SN6PR07MB4191.namprd= 07.prod.outlook.com. For more options, visit https://groups.google.com/d/optout.